Gazell. 19. Norfolk bred. 7110. pescatarian. nursing and psychology major. inquisitive. determined. ambitious. friendly. girly girl. clothes horse. shoe collector. makeup lover. slowly finding my place in this world. introduce yourself and follow me on twitter @gazellcanilou :)
Do not speak ill of yourself;
others will do it for you.
yeah it was sort of like that but not really! sort of the same concept, just using baseball instead of basketball haha. yours was much cuter though! :) prom is so fun! hope you have a good time!
Thanks to @mynchieee, @solbehz, @giaaane, @alvinobeast, @kharlise-reona, @christianbagtas, @kickohh, Arielle and Marlon for helping me!
This is sooo cute I had to reblog lol. I did the same thing for my prom date when I was a senior, but he was a baseball player haha :)
I’ve been feeling some type of way for a couple of days now. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m about to start that time of the month or whatever, but I just feel the need to get this off of my chest. My mind is just all over the place. I don’t expect anyone to read this because I’m guessing it’ll be long. But since tumblr is here and it’s my only “outlet”, I might as well just have this here.
Truth be told, I feel like I have no one. Sure, there’s Noel and my family, but friend-wise, that’s just how it’s been lately. It’s just kind of funny how everyone is so brand new nowadays. I’m not completely innocent of being that way either, in case someone decides to call me out. But what I don’t understand is, why am I always the one that is expected to hit someone up? Last time I checked, A PHONE WORKS BOTH WAYS. So the fact that people get mad at me because “I don’t know how to text or call” is complete and utter bullshit. What’s even funnier is that when I do hit certain people up, they don’t reply back at all. What am I supposed to do then? The fact that I have a boyfriend is complete and utter bullshit. I’ll admit back then I didn’t know how to handle friendships and a relationship, but I can definitely do that now. Nowadays we hardly find any time to be with each other because his work schedule and our school schedules are so conflicting. When my grandma died last month, oh yeah I definitely heard from my “friends” then. But frankly, aside from the endless condolences, NO ONE was there for me. When someone close to you dies, people always say they’re there for you in case you need anything, but they’re really not. No one called me (as far as I can remember) or came over to visit me or my family, to let me cry on their shoulder, NOTHING. It was just all done so informally, through facebook most of all. In fact, the only person that consoled me during this time was my childhood friend (my grandma babysat her) who took time off from school in NEW YORK just to take a bus here. My own boyfriend didn’t even know how to help me, so he just didn’t. People that said they were going to her funeral to see me and my family bailed out. The only people that came were Daniel, Jay, and Jake (they came late, but at least they came). Her death hit me so hard, and I didn’t have anyone to turn to during that time. It affected me so much because she’s been living with us my entire life. I had to see her endure everything, and to have her taken away from me like that really depressed me. I couldn’t function for days.
I’m just really sad right now. There’s so much more I could say, so much more personal stuff, but I shall refrain from doing that. It’s just so funny how things turn out. In high school, I had no idea what to do with my social life because I was always hanging out with people. Maybe I’m just growing up. I hope that’s it… because I’m starting to finally realize that not everyone stays. As bad as it sounds, sometimes it takes a death for people to finally realize things. What sucks is that it’s starting to get to me. And what sucks EVEN MORE is that I’m fucking crying over this dumb shit. Fuck it. And I’m not expecting pity, nor am I trying to start anything. I just needed to say this. Now I can finally have some peace of mind.
This is my new baby, Chloe. She’s always always always sleeping. She’s lazy just like Noel haha. And like one of her godmothers, @madisonannex2. hahaha. I love her so much! Even my dad, who wasn’t really into having a dog in the house at first, ended up falling in love with her! <3
I can’t wait until my friends meet her. She’s so lovable. And cuddly. And so obedient. She’s perfect.
